MoM

I was going to write about something to do with our near drowning experience, but than I thought, I have already said my peace, it is time to move on and discuss other things. So this blog today is how I am feeling, as a mom, as a woman, as a girlfriend, as a human, Not perfect but human.

These past few days have been an interesting mix of emotions, triumphs, hurdles, love and more. Sometimes in our lives we just have those kinds of times. Those times where all you want to do is stick your head above water to catch your breath. You try and you try and you feel like you either are standing still or being pushed backwards. But what do we do? What do we always do?

We persevere. The is no other option. Things won't get done, things won't change unless we keep putting one foot in front of the other. We reach down deep into ourselves and realize we have a little bit more to give. Some don't, some give up. Not us.

Being a single mom to two boys at home full time, a teenager daughter and her brother (my oldest) I realize that moms do a lot of stuff. I grew up in a family that had a mom and dad unit until I became an adult and started my own family. My childhood was different. I didn't know the feeling of having to live between split houses and have my heart torn between the two (much like my youngest child does). I do know that my heart aches and breaks right along with him when he cries because he misses his dad but doesn't want to make me feel bad. Oh, sweet boy, those are the things I will miss when you are grown. I won't miss WWE 1000 in my living room or house but even that I may miss.

Being a single mom is hard, we struggle, we fight for our kids, we love our babies, we hope and pray for their safety and we do the best we can do. At the end of the day that's ok. We can always try again tomorrow. We may not get it perfect but we are going to try.