Sunday Sermon

What a day it has been. I woke up late, didn't hear my alarm. When I finally did wake up I knew I had an hour to get ready and leave for church, for me that is not a lot of time but I felt God calling me, wanting me to be there. I would soon find out why.

I left my kiddo at home, he was still sleeping. My boyfriend and his two children were still at my house, they go to a different church (yes, I know, no judgment please, God works in mysterious ways). I stopped and picked up my mom and we headed to church. When I walked thru the doors, I felt it, that moment when you feel like you left your worries, your heartaches, your chains at the door. You didn't purposely do it, they just fell off before you even knew it. That is when Holy Spirit can move. I always love praise and worship before the Sermon! It is when God talks the most to me, than the sermon usually reiterates what He has already shown me, today was no different! Don't you love how He works that way!

Praise and worship was amazing, we felt Holy Spirit come down on us like a wave, so restful, so peaceful and so strong! We did our normal start to the sermon and once the pastor got up there and started preaching, I knew, I know God had wanted me there today!

It is so funny how He pours it out on us, even when we have went along kicking and screaming, still holding on to the very thing we want Him to fix, yet we are not ready to let it go. He gently pushes but then He gives me what my mom and I call a "hallelujah! slap" usually right upside the head, but He does it with such love!

Today during the sermon I heard what God needed me to hear! He then let it all play out today in my daily life and current situation! He is funny when he does that too, kind of! Ha!

So here I went, on with my day and then the enemy came in. Why? Because I let him! I left that door open! How ironic because what I prayed for was doors too open or close according to God's will, what a different meaning that prayer has this evening. Every second the enemy would try and steal away from me, from us, from the day, he succeeded in some of those areas today, but God is good and made wine out of water, loaves out of air, grace out of mercy. There was toil, snares, division, anger, offensiveness, mean things said, hurtful things felt and so much more. The enemy had won and I realized after coming out of the spiritual warfare tornado, why he won. I knew I was 50% of the problem and I had picked back up what I had asked God to carry less then a few months ago. Once again, praying and asking again today and this time He gave me a different answer! Can we say lightbulb moment?

You see god tells us and even shows us what He wants us to do. We have seen it, we have read it, we have been taught it, we relearn it and then we relearn it again. He keeps patiently waiting as we pick things back up, lay them back down, pick them back up and then lay it back down again. He is standing there, patiently, chuckling every time we come back and say, "Lord, I can't do this anymore." He gladly says..... "Okay" and then what happens. We pick it back up again because it wasn't happening soon enough, it wasn't in our timing, its getting to hard to wait on Him to fix it, we think we know better, we think we can fix it, etc. etc. etc. But we can't fix it, only He can and only if we do our best to live holy lives. Not unless we strive to be more like Jesus will we reap the reward after our time here on earth is thru.

You see todays sermon taught me that Holy Spirit is within in, He is crying out to me to get out of the way and let Him move. He has shown me time and time again how I have went back and picked up the crud I left there before Him in the past. Why do I share this with you? Because I need to confess it, I need to be accountable and I need to look back and remember how strong I was to live for the Lord, not for myself, not for someone else, not for any human on this earth. I am to live for Him and only Him. Jesus wants a personal relationship with each and everyone of us and that includes me! I am a child of God! I am too only conform to His ways and accept His promises. If I do this, I put on the armor of God, I start to act and be more like Jesus, I start to let Holy Spirit move in my life, in ways only He can. I do this because I believe in God the Father, I believe He can move the mountains, He can perform miracles, He can share His grace with so many broken people, including myself. He can create life and breathe and reformation in each of us. He burns out the impurities, refining us. It hurts, it's painful, it's hard. Nothing though is as hard as what my Father did for me. If I just focus on being a good daughter, a good mother, a good companion, a good friend, a good person, then I know I will continue to grow more and more like Jesus every day! Build, declare, love, live, be on fire and become what God want's me to become! A queen!!! I deserve nothing less than that because I am a child of God!!!!! His kingdom will be my home and I hope to help make it crowded someday!

This is my declaration against the enemy, my God is bigger! my God is stronger! my God is greater! For Him to win is the only way!

In Yeshua's mighty name! Amen!

Goodnight!

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