What a Year

Wow! It has been almost a month since I wrote in here. Holidays had things crazy busy for us here in my household. I assume yours was the same. It is funny how things get so chaotic and stressful over the holidays and then poof just like that it's gone.

For me, I had some extra stressors. I started a new job December 5th, I graduated with my BS-Psychology December 17th, five days before Christmas eve I found out a close friend of mine has cancer, my sons birthday was on the 21st and Christmas morning I became engaged. Talk about a rollercoaster of a month! So many good things and a couple pretty rough things. But all in all, we made it thru into 2023.

As I start this new year, I am 3 days away from my 41st birthday, my daughter turns 18 the day before! The big 18!!! Where has time gone! I feel like she was a new born baby girl yesterday! Crazy how many things happen in a year! I reflect over all the good, all the bad and all the in between. Memories I will forever cherish, heartache I have eventually let go of, pride, of calling her my daughter and joy knowing she has so many things set out before her! So many choices and roads she can choose. I can't wait to see the journey she takes, the woman she becomes and the life she makes. Her happiness, all of my children's happiness is the number one thing I wish for them. I love each one of my children so very much and my heart walks outside of my chest every day. Every time I say goodbye to them until every time I see their face again. They may not understand now but perhaps one day they will know how much I loved them! 18 years! Wow!

So many things are going thru my head and my heart tonight. I can't imagine what this next year holds for me and my family but I know no matter what, through the ups and downs, we will stand together and come out on the other end together. So many times families struggle with relationships amongst one another, disagreements that may or may not have been warranted or even just loss of communication and an increase in separation. Sometimes these things are inevitable. I hope that my family continues to remember the importance of coming back together. It is healthy to take space and it is even more healthy to come back together.

As I and my family move forward with this upcoming year, I suspect a lot of changes will happen, joys and heartaches will be experienced but I know my prayers will bring answers we need, restoration we seek and the joy we deserve. Life is a struggle and in the end the only thing that matters is each other!

Happy 2023!!!!!